Debra M.

Debra M.


Why I Am an IMAlive Volunteer

I would love to become an IMAlive Volunteer Responder for a very personal reason. Back in 2004, I personally suffered from what was diagnosed as situational depression. Prior to that, I fully believed that depression was something you could simply "get over" if you just told yourself to be happy. I did not understand the reality of depression and had no clue what was happening to me or why I couldn't make myself be happy. I slipped into such a depressive state that I was barely functioning. I could hardly make myself get out of bed and go to work. I would come home and crawl back into bed. I rarely showered and almost never did the day to day things like cleaning house and going to the grocery store. I withdrew from everything and everyone. There was nothing I seemed to care about anymore. It came to a point where I felt I was alone in a deep, dark hole from which I could never climb out. I felt like there was no point in going on. I was fortunate in that I had family who recognized what I was going through and because of their support, I received help. I will admit that I was so fearful of the stigma attached to a diagnosis of this kind that I would not allow my doctor to write it in my chart and I feared people finding out. It took years of hard work and support, but I have since come to better understand both this form of "mental illness" and who I am as a person. I now proudly have a semicolon tattooed prominently on my right hand and am not ashamed to share my story. I also know that it was through the support of others that I have been able to continue to move forward in life. I now hold a PhD and am working at a job I love in what I consider one of the most beautiful places in the world. I am fully aware that I did not reach this point in my life on my own. This project would become a tremendous way for me to "pay it forward" and help others who feel lost and alone.

Debra M.'s Supporters:

$ 60 on March 06, 2016 by Robert Murphy

$ 40 on March 06, 2016 by Robert Murphy

$ 50 on March 06, 2016 by vincent murphy

We love you very much Deb!

$ 100 on March 06, 2016 by Robert Murphy

$ 20 on March 05, 2016 by Sherrye Garrett

So proud of you for all you have been through.

$ 20 on March 05, 2016